What’s wrong with me

[Nerual2024]

I don’t know if I am being emotionally abused or if it’s all in my head.

my partner( if he even is that) cheated on me multiple times with his ‘ex’ I forgive him on both occasions.

now he does not let me have social media, he says that I constantly give him a hard time, he is accusing me of flirting with everyone I even look at or speak to, or even from work. Anytime I try to have a conversation he twists it back to me claiming I am making his life harder. We argue daily if I don’t answer my phone right away or if I don’t send him certain messages in the morning or after work.
it’s getting to the point I don’t want to get out of bed I am obsessive in thinking I’m doing something wrong constantly walking on egg shells or he will explode and accuse me of stuff on a daily basis . He wants me to admit to stuff I didn’t do or else says the relationship can’t work.
he questions my every single movement yet I don’t know what he’s at or doing half the time and if I ask he ignores me for hours saying that I don’t trust him. He has never laid a hand on me on purpose. This is Al just the small things but I don’t know maybe if there is something wrong with me or he is abusive.

[Nerual2024]

Anytime I raise any concern we argue to the point I have to apologise even though I have done nothing wrong but he holds it against me for days making me basically beg for any attention or affection and as if I am a big problem.

[Bananaboat]

There’s nothing wrong with you, he’s showing you abusive/toxic behaviours I’m afraid. Look up the cycle of abuse and gaslighting. You’ll probably find you can relate to a lot of posts on here. x

[Nerual2024]

Thanks so much. I actually feel so crazy. I’m in a professional job and felt I was strong and just really don’t think I wanted to believe that it was happening. But I’ve looked that up and it really is so relatable. It’s mad I have never let anyone treat me like this. Why have I not just walked away and finding it so hard to function at the thought of being without him.

[Bananaboat]

They love strong women, both because we’re a solid supply and because of their delusions of grandeur they love to bring us down. You’d be surprised how many people on here were living successful lives in one way or another and got caught by one of these predators. Counselling can help figure out why but glad I could help even a bit xx

[Lisa]

Hi Nerual2024,

Thank you for your post and welcome to the forum. I am sorry to hear about the abuse you are experiencing. You are doing the right thing by reaching out for support. I hope you find the forum a safe and supportive place to be with others who understand.

If you feel like you are in need of some additional support, you could chat to a Women’s Aid worker in confidence via our Live Chat service (open every day). They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat service here.

Do keep posting to let us know how you’re getting on.

Best wishes,

Lisa
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