Thank you both for responding to my message. I am having a really low day.
I feel fearful of the future because I don’t feel financially stable or financially able to take care of myself and my child.
Today I asked for help with money and this ended with him taunting and laughing at me. I held it together because our child was there but I feel really low and worthless atm. I don’t understand what he gets from seeing me struggle. For the time we have been together I have paid for everything and provided a life for us because he has always said ‘I don’t have it’ but when he wants to buy trainers or a tattoo he ‘has it’. Yesterday I didn’t shower or brush me teeth, I barely moved from my bed. I don’t have family support or friends and it hurts because It feels like no one cares. Trying not to fall into a depression that I can’t come back from as I need to hold it together for my child but I’m falling apart.
