Annushka

[Annushka]

Having a bit of a wobble. We spoke for hours again last evening, he’s hurting really badly and begging  for another chance. I feel I’m being selfish wanting a life for myself without the fear of further verbal abuse in the future, but I am conflicted as I am a caring person, I dont like seeing what’s happening to him, he says he’s having major panic attacks. I feel guilty as I’m the one causing him pain now. Yet deep down I know if I dont give myself a chance of a different life, this is all I can see going forward.

[Annushka]

Thanks Bananaboat. That helps me clear my thoughts. I get sucked back in with these actions and begin to doubt myself. But I KNOW these actions won’t last, they are just a repeat of what’s happened before and it didn’t change then so why should it change now. I need to remain strong and determined. I really appreciate your reply. Take care x

[Annushka]

Hi Bananaboat, thanks for ur reply. He’s acting out of character now, cleaning, clearing out crap that he’s been hoarding for years and  talking about doung diy on house, …. stuff I’ve been asking him to do for ages.  It’s strange behaviour. Did you experience this? Is he just doing this to make me feel that he has changed? I’m so confused.

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