Becks

[Becks]

Thank you for your kind words nbumblebee. I haven’t spoken to anyone at Woman’s Aid yet but i will do soon. I am feeling much stronger today than i did yesterday after speaking to my son at length and a friend at work. For a short period i had forgotten all i have been through and just wanted things to be normal again. My auntie described it as merely putting a plaster over a wound but it never ever heals and she is right. I Every time I return home that’s exactly what i have been doing. Also from a financial aspect, this has made it more complicated as my salary pays for almost everything and i don’t have any savings.
I do draw comfort from the love of my family and friends and i do need to find the courage to tell him that things are over between us and that i am no longer going to accept his unacceptable behaviour towards me.
I will of course keep posting on here and i wish you all the best too. You Take care too x

[Becks]

Reading your post nbumblebee and the replies you have received has helped me significantly this evening i must say. Feeling isolated and alone with a husband of (detail removed by moderator) years who spends 99.9% of the time being angry at me. I waited (detail removed by moderator) years for my mother to leave my father and she found love and happiness again and my parents remained friends. I on the other hand have found it difficult to leave or i have left but soon returned too. I have a large family who are saddened at how he treats me. My husband has not spoken to me since (detail removed by moderator). He came across a post of (detail removed by moderator). Instead of speaking to me about it he rushed to (detail removed by moderator) and showed the short video to him who then told my husband he couldn’t see anything wrong with it. Apparently he was raging with anger and told my neighbour that (detail removed by moderator). He then (detail removed by moderator). He wouldn’t tell me and said he would show me some (detail removed by moderator) later when he returned. I had anxiety building up inside of me. My daughter hadn’t posted anything and didn’t have a clue what it was about. My husband then accused her of (detail removed by moderator). For cultural reasons he wouldn’t want his family seeing his daughter having a drink and she herself would never put up a post knowing he’d be offended. I do not drink and i had all my children, siblings, their respective families and grandchildren round to celebrate New Year with (detail removed by moderator). (detail removed by moderator) he told me that he never wanted to speak to me ever again and refused to say why. The irony is that I found out yesterday from my brother that my husband had (detail removed by moderator). He (detail removed by moderator) to drink discreetly! Such an hypocrite and please tell me how do i become responsible for some random person uploading a video? I fail to see how this becomes my fault for which he is now taking it out on me. Absolute irrational behaviour that he will keep up for weeks. My family are waiting for me to take those difficult steps and to put this toxic relationship behind me but it is incredibly hard and i hope some day it will be easier. Thank you for listening. Good night all.

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