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Oh I will have a look and read that book that might help me! Yes a lot of anxiety because I am still vulnerable and I know that at back of my head I’m desperate to hear from him, it scares me as to why I just won’t let go and be like no he did that to me I am done, I think as the days are going on it is slowly getting easier as I have my independence back and I do feel safe on my own, as he made me feel like I needed him.. I just feel like how could a relationship possibly work now, because certain comments he made on phone “I don’t know why I’m in here, well I do but I’m not that kind of person” which to me is letting me know he is saying in a way you made me that person, which for once I am not listening to that I was a housewife that wanted to make my family happy

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Yes he was the one who assaulted me, also got charged a few years ago but this time got prison, which was a complete shock, I have spoke with woman’s aid already, and other places which recommended me to this page to speak to other people that have been through the same sort of stuff, I do have family but hard to speak when people don’t fully understand how someone can be in your head so much! Exactly that he has done that to but very manipulative so for years I never actually understood what he was doing he used to make me feel like I was actually crazy, I have suffered from bad anxiety and depression and have noticed when bail was on place and I didn’t have him telling me stuff that my anxiety had went away, but what really annoys me is how if I know so much he has hurt me and ruined me as a person do I still love him and want him 🙁

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Yeah that’s what I thought because how can someone phone me so upset for weeks sayin how much he misses me and our child, to I can’t be with you anymore, he has done that for years anything I would be excited for he would ruin it in emotional behaviour! It’s only now I’m starting to see how bad it was, well TBH it did hurt a lot reading family’s messages because they had seen the state of me after the incident and told me to walk away and now they have changed their attitude completely, it’s disgraceful and I just can’t believe I’m getting the blame for something I didn’t do he chose to attack me not the other way around

[Hair]

Yeah I find it so difficult he hasn’t actually contacted me since breaking up with me, i think it is because I know he will eventually contact I feel like it could just be to hurt me right now leading to Christmas “he knows I love Christmas” doesn’t help I have his family contacting blaming me etc horrible messages, which I have began to have a backbone and have said no your wrong I did not ask for any of this to happen!

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Yeah it’s breaking the bonds I find it hard, I do go to counselling already and it does help but no matter what he does he is constantly in my thoughts!

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