I am new to this and don’t really know where to start.
I think I just needed a safe space where I can let everything out that has been building up inside of me.
I am finding it very hard to come to terms with being emotionally and mentally abused and I am constantly questioning my reality – the lowest I have got to is wanting to lay in the middle of the road and hoping to get run over as I wanted all what I was feeling to just stop. That was a thought I was feeling I wouldn’t actually to it (detail removed by moderator)
I always knew there was some sort of problem I thought it was alcohol and mental health issues so it came as a shock that drugs were involved and it came as even more of a shock that family members new and no one told me!!! At the height of it all he thought I was having an affair with anyone and everyone- he would watch my every move, check the bed for stains, stand outside the shower when I was washing, I couldn’t even sleep on my sofa without him thinking I was letting people in through the windows . I tried my hardest to prove to him I was doing nothing …. how can you prove to someone you aren’t doing anything when you’re actually doing nothing! He sent me crazy!
I’m looking for help just to have someone to talk to as I’m on my own I don’t have any friends
