Hi.
Thank you so much for your reply. It was approx (detail removed by moderator) since I had to have the injunction served and we split up. My post last night was my first attempt at a daily diary.
Is it normal to still feel like this?
I’m friends with him now, I have to be for the sake of my girls. He is a great Dad. My girls live with him because I’m a rubbish mom. Even I’ve started to like him again. He really is a nice , helpful, kind person. I know the girls think I’m ‘mental, troubled Mom’, the person that broke their family up. I just don’t know how to move forward and be happy for the sake of my girls. He was my best friend. (detail removed by moderator)
I don’t know how my friends get away with not being hit by there bf/husbands but I know its not normal to think that. If they or my girls told me about any violence, I’d get them out ASAP. But with me and him, it was different. I deserved it. I was depressed (now I know why).
My eldest witnessed one occasion when he punched me in the face when she was stood in the middle of us while we were casually chatting one night. She was petrified. (detail removed by moderator)
I just don’t know if I made a big deal for no reason. I feel like I shouldn’t have spoken out. I’ve lost everything.
