Indenail

[Indenail]

i’m sorry you went through this, but i’m so glad you have come out the other side and are shining bright! better days are coming xx

[Indenail]

Hi both,

 

thank you both for your responses.

 

i haven’t reached out yet,

i am worried of the repercussions at present. my parents are away on holiday and i informed them of what’s going on. they told me they already knew and aren’t stupid. i think they are just in fear of me being isolated to him. whereas if they keep me close and act like they like him he won’t be able to keep me away from them.  once they are back i am going to take some serious measurements to try and get away.

im going to lose my home soon, he keeps telling me i need to leave when we argue and that my daughter will be staying with him. but she’s so young she needs her mummy. i look after her full time whilst he works.

we have huge fights, i snap and have complete emotionally outbursts.  he threw my (object removed by Moderator) at me (timeframe removed by Moderator) outside the (location removed by Moderator) and it hit me in the face and cut my nose. i was so embarrassed and swore at him and had a huge meltdown in the house. i was crying and screaming. it all had just come out. he was filming me telling me he is going to use it in evidence that i am so unstable. i just hit breaking point.

he threatens to hurt my family, to sell the family car or to crash it, he threatens to burn the house with my belongings.

im stuck wishing he was the version “he could be” when he’s nice and happy but it’s very rare.  everything is cold and frosty.

it was (occasion removed by Moderator) (timeframe removed by Moderator) and he didn’t even get me a card or anything from my daughter. no cake, or banners.

he sulked upstairs and brought himself a chinese and didn’t offer me any. just sat there and ate it himself.

he’s already been to prison with domestic related incidents, i feel like a bad person if he goes back. he’s worked hard to rebuild his life with me. or perhaps i was just a distraction. for him to get himself back the straight and narrow.

i feel awful if i have to report him to the police. but then again ive been locked in a mental prison for years 🙁

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