My dear all, thank you so very much, I cannot emphasize enough how helpful and important your replies are for me. Yes I am still out. I feel like things do not move fast enough to divorce but lately I realized that the struggles And obstacles I am forced to face Are just another way of manipulation – the more I try and voice my efforts, the worse IT gets. And it somehow calmed me down. Wish me luck.
I have a new Insight to share too. Today I visited a long planned therapy. After my sharing, the therapist Felt Very sorry for me. But it did not help. I felt even smaller and ashamed. I guess I was looking more for encouragement than pity and I realized that I hate to be a victim. I want to be strong woman who will find peace and even happiness and not someone “who suffers under men”.
It was awkward experience, downsizing.
Therefore, again, thank you, because I feel much better reading your replies. I read them around And around. I Will go on and try to remain Positive.
