I think the initial leaving period you’re happy to be out of their company, I was overjoyed being in a space of my own but after a while the reality of what happened started to set in. It’s been (detail removed by Moderator) since I ended things with my ex who was physically and emotionally abusive. I’m now in a place where I feel stuck and all the events I am trying to process but it’s made me a prisoner in my own home. I’m scared to go out and socialise, frightened of new people, and always worrying if they’ll come to my door. I constantly check my door to make sure it’s locked and I wish I could move past it, I’ve cried a lot since the initial happiness it was finally over but I think it’s all part of processing what’s happened. Before it all ended I was in a state of survival trying to get through each moment, now it’s as if my brain has the space to try and piece together exactly what happened.
