This is incredibly resourceful and straightforward to read, so I feel a lot less overwhelmed, thank you for taking the time to write this- and yeah…
It hurts so much knowing that for a lot of my family members, I cannot communicate or have to limit so much information which I want to share with them about myself, because they do not understand and would rather be in blissful ignorance to the abuse I had endured with the people I survived around. They would relay information or go straight to the source just to “prove” to themselves that they are not as “monstrous/Villainous” as I deem them to be, being unaware to their manipulation or victim blaming techniques.
I want to live in peace, hence why I do not bother to even speak with them anymore- I have tried to reach out to them for support, but I would be judged, neglected or underwhelmed whenever I would get hurt, physically or psychologically by them.