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Thank you! getting out of it was probably the hardest decision i ever had to make and I am well aware he will still try to get to me to make me feel guilty for choosing myself. And the worst part is that I do feel guilty in a way. Emotional abuse is probably the ugliest thing there is. It turns you into someone you’re not and makes you feel ashamed of yourself. Apart from not knowing who you are, what you like or what you need, you are also left with this constant weight in your chest

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Thank you both! Atm I can’t even imagine dating or meeting someone. I have been terrified my whole life with being on my own or single. Somehow i believed that as long as I am in a relationship I have worth and being single was me being a failure. Now I have the same fears but at the same time I can’t imagine being with someone. I can only hope this will fade in time and if I do decide to date, it ll be from a place of strength rather than fear

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You give me so much hope. I am starting to understand the why and the how. And you are right. It is really hard and it takes brutal honesty to admit my own responsibility in what happened, without adding to the shame and guilt I feel. Sometimes it feels like giving up drugs and I doubt myself a lot. I can just hope that if I stick to it, it will be worth it. What you’ve written gives me hope that there is a light at the end of all this, because all I can see now is darkness

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Thank you so much for being so supportive! It is hard explaining it to my friends or family as they expect me to be fine now that I’ve left him. Probably their blank looks and silence hurts me just as much as everything else. So having people who have been through it and are now enjoying life is so helpful. I booked 8 sessions with a therapist. Had the first one yesterday and she s amazing.and i have purchased some books about trauma bonding, C PTSD and self compassion to start my journey. Just like you I think I have enred up with people that were no good for me just because I didn’t think I deserved better.

Thank you again!

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