Hi Happiermex
I just wanted to show you some support. Sorry to hear about how you are feeling at the moment, it’s really positive that you have realised that you need to spend some more time looking after yourself and having family time. It would be nice for you to visit your grandparents too.
Maybe you could start with writing yourself a list of things to do each day such as being mindfully present to a song or looking at something that makes you feel happy, do something relaxing, reach out to family etc and then you can tick them off through out your day. Maybe you have a hobby you would like to start up again or learn something new. I really hope you start to love yourself again, you have achieved so much.
Take care
Lisa