Well done on leaving, it takes immense courage. You are very brave. Let yourself cry, you’ll have swallowed enough tears. They will help you to heal. Be very gentle with yourself. Treat yourself like you would one of your children if they were upset. Make sure you eat(even if you’re not hungry) little and often, drink plenty of water and try to get some rest. Healing needs nutrition and rest. Some fresh air and time in nature really helped me too. That’s plenty for now.
Reach out here and to womens aid for support, you deserve it. You have done the right thing for you and your children. This is not your fault and it’s normal to feel broken and hurt. You will piece yourself back together and be stronger than before.
Sending hugs x*x