I’ve been out for (detail removed by Moderator) now and things are still so very stressful.I was fine when at work but now I am off for (detail removed by Moderator) and I’m falling in a hole.He is desperately trying to win me back.I blocked him but he keeps sending emails and telling the kids to tell me he loves me etc.I had to give my whole life up in order to leave him.I was very close with his family, was there when his/our nieces, nephews were born and saw them growing up.Now I’m no longer part of him or anything to do with him.Everyone is stressed and in pain and even though they say they understand why I left, they still blame me for causing everyone stress, especially his mum as I’m going through her to arrange contact with the children.She is getting fed up of being in the middle and I don’t want direct contact.It all seems so unfair.All my family are abroad.I don’t have anyone to help with the children and now that I’m off work I don’t have anyone to talk to….x