Hi Pubalina
Thank you for your post and welcome to the forum. You did really well to reach out and post on the forum, I hope you feel able to open up more once you are ready.
You’ll find guidance in the Forum Guidelines and FAQ’s.
If you feel like you are in need of some additional support, you could chat to a Women’s Aid worker in confidence via our Live Chat service (open 10am-6pm every day). They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat
service here: https://chat.womensaid.org.uk/
Best wishes,
Lisa
Forum Moderator