Hi Brunette3
I am sorry to hear about how you are feeling. It is normal to feel like this, you are not stupid at all and you are strong as you are going through so much and have managed to reach out here for support.
It must be disappointing for you that you are feeling that the counsellor has not helped, it can be so hard to open up. You could chat to a Women’s Aid worker via our Live Chat service to explore other options (open 10am-6pm every day). They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat service here: https://chat.womensaid.org.uk/
Please keep posting, we are all here for you.
Best wishes,
Lisa