It is taking so much to write this so please please don’t judge.
Rewind almost (detail removed by moderator) ago when I first met him. Everything was amazing! A few months later I found out he took cocaine, every now and then. I let it slide. A few months later I started doing it with him. And that’s where I am trapped.
The emotional abuse started. Name calling, gas lighting, smashing the house up, making him angry. I’m too scared to phone them police or anybody else. When I say I am going to call them he “dares” me to, and I get scared and just sit there and take it. I live my life in fear, never knowing what mood he is going to be in or when he will suddenly turn on me for the slightest thing.
My children hate him. I hate him. He has started calling my (detail removed by moderator) year old horrible names and blaming it on her for the way she is toward him.
I’m too scared to tell him to leave as then everyone will know, and my life will come crashing down as he says.
I just don’t know where to turn.