Hello Icandothis,
Thank you for sharing this.
It will take a while to move away from feeling like this, but you will not miss him forever.
When our worlds are consumed by an abuser it is difficult to adjust to not thinking of them all the time, this is all part of the abusive dynamic and it will pass eventually.
Try to keep in mind the reasons why you left and the fact that you deserve so much better, you’re doing the right thing continuing with no contact.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa