Hey, it’s normal to feel that way after even a healthy relationship. In reality the imagination of the pain is way worse than the actual seeing it. Most abusers go out and deliberately pick the first vulnerable woman they find just to cause that triangulation. Yes it might be painful in the short term but blocking him on everything should mean you don’t see what he’s upto. You might surprised yourself and feel relief! ask yourself is that any reason to stay in a relationship you don’t want to be in?