Devistated

Hi I’m new here. I left my husband (detail removed by Moderator). We haven’t even been married (detail removed by Moderator) yet. We bought a house together (detail removed by Moderator), moving me away from my mum and dad but promising we would still see them often. Well that didnt happen. My daughter is (detail removed by Moderator) and my mum and dad have been like parents to her, they are very close and he stopped her seeing them whenever she wanted to, saying it felt like she didn’t want to spend time with us but he was vile to her, treated her like a maid and called her lazy all the time, told her she should grow up but then saying she is a child and should do what she’s told and not have an attitude when she stood up for herself. He constantly reminded her she was not his daughter and the last straw was when he said me and him.would be better if she wasn’t around. Whenever I stood up for her I would be shouted at and told I never back him up and that I should always back him up. I said I did back him up if I agreed with what he was saying. He would storm off and not eat his dinner, I couldn’t win because if I followed him he would shout abuse at me, calling me names, telling me to f off and get out the house, to leave. The more I tried to reason with him the worse it got. If I didn’t follow him I was told I wasn’t being supportive. He also controlled me. He was allowed to go out every day after work and see his friends and have beers, come home when he wanted. Me and my daughter had to wait to have dinner until he got home because he would kick off if we ate without him. But if I wanted to see a friend, I would have to get his permission and even then I knew he would use it against me somehow. We shared a car and one time I tried to leave and he took the car keys and would not let me go. When I wanted to get my own car he argued with me, saying I can’t afford it – well I could and he didn’t like that. He just didn’t want me to have any freedom. I just keep thinking of more and more examples of things he did that I ignored for so long. Now me and my daughter have left our house, our jobs, everything. I am devistated and embarrassed. I’m scared to be put into temporary accommodation because I just feel so depressed. I suffer with depression anyway and I’m really scared of getting worse.