Working on myself and thinking it through so why I attract a certain type of person
Looking back its been very lonely as I don’t believe anyone in my life has been genuine there’s been ulterior motive to what they have wanted.
Father abusive
School bullied
Work bullied
Work sexually assaulted and groomed at young age
Male friend’s abusive, only friends as wanted more from me
Boyfriend’s
Husband
My friends past and present are somewhat too and not close friends. I don’t have a friend to give me a hug or who I can just see in a time of need. I’ve been used by them or friendships have been strange or even full on interfering ones. I had one close friend when I was first with my husband but lost her as both our husbands got involved and it broke down. I believe her situation with her husband was like mine and so friendship lost as husbands didn’t like our friendship.
I’m aware growing up in the environment at home has damaged my self esteem and more.
I’m lucky the relationships with my children and my mother are good.