Today with my youngest son. We went to a destination he were afraid of going as he has a memory there from his dad when he had tried crashing the car last year. So he faced his fear. My sons autistic and drags his leg through trauma. I were looking round at familys some looked happy. Me and my son were happy too and i thought why the hell didnt i get away years ago. Instead of leaving it nearly 2 decades. Ive been triggered a lot lately by him through things although im still no contact i were starting to feel weak again. But i thought no stuff u loser me and my boys are the winners.. if only id of left years ago its sad really…. x