The fact you have got back together and you are here posting tells you that its not going to work, but don’t be too hard on yourself, I left and went back many times until I came to the point I was strong enough. I have gone no contact and have a restraining order, its the only way I could do it as I still often have feelings for him. Its sad but true, no matter what people say or recommend, no one can make you stay away from him, its something that will happen when your ready. Hopefully you have friends who will support you even though you have gone back, and if not we are all here for you. I doubt there’s many people that left and never went back even once. Just remember, you don’t have to be stuck, there is so much help and support for you…..I wish you good luck, stay strong and big hugs x*x