Hi,
It’s a Saturday night and I just realised that I feel totally relaxed. Saturday nights used to be the most horrendous time. I just wanted to share.
I don’t need to be afraid in my own home any more. I don’t need to ask permission just to be any more. I don’t need to feel wrongly ashamed of my decisions and choices. I don’t need to feel guilty for wanting more than just an existence. My home is now my happy and safe place. I don’t need to fake smiles here any more, I can be in whichever mood I need to be in and there is no one there to tell me I’m wrong for feeling what I need to feel. I am becomming proud of who I am. When I smile it’s because I mean it and I laugh once again without guilt.
I used to cry every single day. I was so lost and although I am still healing and not quite where I need to be I sure as hell am glad that I’m not where I used to be.