I don’t think it’s you being weak, I think it’s really normal and self-preservation. THat must have been a shock finding him in your home. I am the same – hide, avoid, anything to avoid seeing him or his flying monkeys. In some ways I hate that I can’t hold my head high as I’m not the one who did something wrong, but I guess we all do whatever we need to get through – if hiding your face works for you then don’t worry about it x