I decided, to pick me up and spur me on to fight against the dark cloud hanging over me, that I would buy something nice when I feel better. Something to aim towards, as it were.
I picked a beautiful long wool coat and was really looking forwards to treating myself.
Only, I suddenly remembered that it is just like a (detail removed by moderator) he bought me to stop me calling the police.
I now have to find something else. What if I can’t find anything that doesn’t bring back memories of him?