It’s only been a short while since I left, it’s currently his overnight with our son and it’s given me a moment to actually process it all and it’s overwhelming. Like all the abuse I experienced I was just living in and now I’m out I can feel the emotions of it all but it’s coming in massive waves and it’s a lot. Throw in covid, well meaning friends who offer to be there but don’t have the capacity to actually be there for me, at least not in the way I need and ultimately who I really want to have with me is my Mum who I haven’t seen in over a year and no idea when I will be able to see next. I have to work today…it’s just all feeling too much.