Hi things have been hard…but don’t force yourself to do anything, just go with the flow and follow your heart. Leaving is hard, so if you’re not ready yet have you considered reaching out to family and friends, so at least you’ve a supporting network which can make things easier. Human beings are interesting, we can’t stop loving then person even they hurt us badly, but it’s okay, it’s okay to struggle and feel sad. Just be patient and find your own way, you’ll be fine, dont be hard to yourself. my dm is open if you want to chat x