It was (detail removed by moderator) since my son lost his life yesterday.
The day was as ok as it could be, remembering him and grieving him.
On the evening myself, and my family took my youngest to visit his great grandma. My mam stayed at home.
My ex, who is responsible for our sons death (though police haven’t charged him and dismissed the coroners verdict as ‘opinion), turned up at my parents door.
My mam said he was drunk and banging on the door for at least (detail removed by moderator). She said he said (detail removed by moderator) and that’s when she left via the back door and went to the neighbours house. She’s logged this with the police.
I was so shaken last night, on high-alert and I can’t get what he said out of my head – why my parents house? Did he go to my house too? What would he have done if I was home? Would he have elaborated if my mam had listened? What drove him to my parents house, drunk and seeking forgiveness?
I woke up this morning drenched in my own sweat, so I think I must have had a bad night – thought I can’t remember any nightmares.