Anniversary of Freedom

[Tiffany]

I am coming up to my first anniversary of freedom. I was quite excited about it. But as it has come closer I have found myself increasingly beset by terror. Is this normal? I have had a couple of minor flashbacks, but it’s mostly just emotional turmoil. I found myself in floods of tears on my way home from work tonight and I have no idea what the trigger was.

[Janedoeissad]

First of all Happy Anniversary!! A whole year of freedom and look how far you have come.

I tend to find these days, the things which I would expect to bring me great joy, sometimes bring anxiety too. And I am learning that is ok, the anxiety tends to pass. Then the fun can begin.

I think its perfectly normal to feel the way you are feeling, and there are many potential reasons for it:

1. The mourning of the life you could have had if your Ex had not come along.
2. The fear that after all this time, he might come back.
3. The fear that you will somehow regress back to where you were a year ago emotionally.

Hope this is helpful, with only being close to my half year anniversary, I am not sure I am much help.

Big hugs

J x

[cupofcoffee]

Hi hun, yes these feelings are perfectly normal, it is as if our brains need time to process the trauma to make sense of everything, it is like being on a roller coaster but it does settle down in time.

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