Another dreaded holiday

[Butterfly-A]

I feel so sad dreading the long easter weekend after hearing colleagues so excited to be off.

[smallbutbrave]

Same , sending hugs x*x

[nbumblebee]

Yup x

[Happybelle]

Hear you. To be fair it’s every weekend these days.

[Atsah]

I am glad others feel the same as me about weekends/holidays.I am no longer with my ex so i appreciate i don’t have the same worries some of u are experiencing but i feel sick at the thought of being off work as it’s the one place i don’t have time to think.Also my friends have all been away over Easter and i have had too much time by myself which is no good for my mental health.I have just tried to keep as busy as possible.Can’t win because now i am dreading going back to work tomo because it will be facing all the questions like did u go away, have a good break etc apart from a few good days it’s been so hard.i have my first specialist counselling session tomo, just general counselling before, so although i am lucky to have one i am so anxious about going over everything again and having to do it at work over zoom.i know i have to do it though because i need to get him out of my head and have some good days rather than c****y ones.sending u all the very best, being able to speak on here has really helped as I know we all understand what each other has been going through. i had to make new friends when i left him and that was hard and although they are all supportive they haven’t experienced the things we all have or are still experiencing.Thinking of you all x

[Butterfly-A]

Hi Atsah,

Agreed, it’s so helpful to have people that really do understand.

Best of luck with the counselling, I think they will expect you to be a bit anxious / uncomfortable and hopefully they will show a lot of support, give us an update how it goes if you are comfortable to!

I know questions are hard but maybe try to stick to simple answers, like ‘It was good to have a rest’ and move on with your day, you dont have to tell anyone anything you dont want to!

[Atsah]

Hi thanks for your kind words.it went okish thanks first one was really just discussing what needs to be covered in the sessions.she did an assessment for my PTSD symptoms.i had to have appt at work and so just carried on working after session.later in the evening really hit me hard.i think it’s because i know it’s just going get worse as time goes on and i have got to deal with it all again.feel so alone sometimes even though i know i am lucky to have family and friends.just worry that once i have gone through counselling it’s not going change that feeling of isolation.hope everyone is doing as ok as they can.x

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