Oh PP, it brought tears to my eyes to read that. I’m so sorry you didn’t have that mothers love. You’re right its so hard to not have it. I admire your wisdom and caring.
Ayanna, thank you, I am with family but not my children till later in the day. I have a few days before Christmas potentially on my own, so I’m going to think of some distractions for then.
Grateful for your lovely hugs.
xx