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13th April 2017 at 11:21 pm #40857AyannaParticipant
Just now someone knocked on my door to deliver a pizza. I did not order any pizza and it is a company I would never want to eat pizza from.
He went completely wrong and I cannot believe he got it that wrong. My place is not so easy to find.
It took me a while to open the door and look at the guy. I was so scared that it could be an acid attack or he just tried to find out who lives here. -
14th April 2017 at 7:52 am #40866Peaceful PigParticipant
Hi Ayanna, I had a similar experience recently. Like you my home isn’t easy to find so it’s unusual for someone to turn up accidentally. I was surprised how much it affected me still but it made me really anxious and jumpy. The next day was warm and sunny and I pushed my myself to have the door open and enjoy the fresh air and warmth, because logically I know I am safe now. I must believe there’s a chance of something happening to react the way I did and maybe there’s some truth in that, but I’m sick of living in fear, it’s too exhausting. I am choosing not to live in a prison anymore. The fear is so ingrained I know but I hope your anxiety subsides soon. Give yourself lots of love and reassurance xx
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14th April 2017 at 9:21 am #40868AlicenotichainsParticipant
Good morning ladies,
The fear is ingrained you are right PP. If my phone rings I my heart starts to race, a delivery driver walked past my window last week and for a split second I thought it was him and I jumped out of my skin.
Hopefully the pizza delivery was just a mistake Ayanna- your guard is clearly up which is good as it will keep you safe. It’s the not knowing which is hard. I read somewhere that it’s similar to being in water and being circled by a sharks fin, when the fin disappears under the water and you can no longer see it- it doesn’t mean that you feel any safer, in fact you feel more at risk because you don’t know where the shark is or what it’s going to do.I think because it’s the bank holiday weekend I feel a bit more vulnerable because I am at home.
Sending you positive thoughts Ayanna. You are doing so well X -
14th April 2017 at 9:36 am #40869older ladyParticipant
Hello, Ayanna. I just want to send you some support. It’s horrifying that you are vulnerable to acid attack. I know you don’t want your home to become your prison, but you don’t need to answer the door unless you’re expecting the caller. I don’t see it as giving into fear, although I completely get where Peaceful Pig is coming from on this, and long term the way you want to go. Even though the caller probably really is a pizza delivery guy, maybe new on the job and doesn’t know the area, you don’t need to take the risk. I don’t think I would. Ayanna, are you familiar with Maryam Namazie? xx
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