Hi Inneedofsomepeace,
I just wanted to show you some support. I am sorry that due to technical problems there isn’t as much support as there should be here on the forum today.
I am not surprised that you feel so frightened. I hope that you are safe and have some support. Please phone the helpline so that they can talk to your about your options, safety plan and perhaps even talk to you about going to a refuge if you are not safe to stay where you are.
Stay safe and best wishes,
Lisa