Be nice to yourself

[Iwantmeback]

Hi all, i haven’t been that particular with taking care of me. Personal hygiene included😪 maybe its a defence mechanism,, if im not clean, he’ll not come near me. Anyway, I’m not that person today, or even the past few days, I have actually covered myself in body lotion today after my bath. Not done THAT in over a year. I’ve recently restarted using face cream too🙂ive always brushed my teeth, but was only even doing that once a day. How can i do this to myself, where’s my pride. Well I’m finding it. I smell lovely😄 ive even started putting on a bit of makeup again. I’m wearing a wee tea dress and will pull on my boots when i go out. No more hiding behind and within the ‘bag lady’ i was becoming😡. I’m still living with him, but he won’t define me any longer. The stronger I’m becoming, the more morose, depressed and suicidal he’s becoming. I couldn’t picture ever doing what I’ve done(for me), even last week, never mind when i first started posting😞. But I’m finding ME again. When i first met him, he was in the midst of leaving his ex, he was down, suicidal, depressed,( I was sympathy personified. How can she do this to this lovely man, how can she stop him seeing his children. ) everything he was, he is now. If i could I’d talk to her, get her side, but we all know what she’d say don’t we! plus I’m a wee bit feart he’d find out.
So fir everyone who is still on the couch with the covers over them fir days on end, barely eating, hiding away. This post is for you, 🙂 you will get there, however long it takes you. This is your fight, we are all the same, yet we are all different.

IWMB 💕💕

[Anonymous]

IWMB, Sounds like your getting braver, don’t be scared to be strong and beautiful 😊💕💕 I’m so glad your feeling better ☺wee smile on my face xx 💕 DIY😊

[Iwantmeback]

😊😊 I’m painting my nails now, bright red and wearing red lippy too💄👄

[Anonymous]

Bell of the ball 😊💕💕

[lover of no contact]

Great post and well done. Its also a great act of defiance towards him. They want to break us and stop our light from shining well it hasn’t worked. You are going from strength to strength. Self-care is the way to healing. Self-care, self-care, self-care. Even when we don’t feel like it. We have to reclaim that part of us that they have damaged. Even if we have to fake it until we make it.

[Iwantmeback]

Thanks loverofnocontact, i haven’t been able to do any self care, bar brush my teeth, for so long. The thought of doing what i have today wasnt even on my radar. I think because I’m mentally detaching now also as well as having been emotionally detached fir so long is helping too.
He never even asked if i enjoyed myself or anything and i didn’t volunteer it.
I did have a nice time, change of scene and out of the house for a few hours. Even left my phone at home. It’s locked so he wouldn’t have been able to access it., i realised as i was leaving that it was still on charge and he’d have said something sarcy if I’d came back in to get it.
IWMB 💕💕

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