Hi wanttoleave, firstly the fact you have a plan in place to leave is great and you’ve started making the necessary preparations and really thinking about how to go about it with work etc.
I know how stressful this can be but please know that this is heightened because of the anticipation of leaving. It won’t feel like this forever, and having a completely fresh start will allow you to draw a line and move forward. It’s great that you’re self employed and have a skill like (detail removed by Moderator) that you can move to absolutely anywhere. So that’s a really big positive.
I just wanted to say although it’s scary now, you’re doing this for the benefit of your future and future happiness. I hope you find the strength to power through and work through your worries as well. I empathise with the anxiety and depression. I have it bad at the moment and it’s really tough, but you’re doing great and sounds like you’re really thinking about things ❤️ Sending positivity and encouragement your way and hope you feel a lot better about things soon x