Cant stand it

[Alittlelost]

I honestly cant stand this. My boyf Is working literally all hours of day light under alot of stress and dead lines. 7 days a week. He is a essential role in this virus stuff but works from home. I cant stand the tension. The being locked upstairs in one room or tip toeing around even more so then usual. I thought it was bad before, now it’s even worse. I cant cope. I just cant deal with any more of this. I’m going insane.

[Alittlelost]

The suicidal thoughts are creeping in. Seems like my only option.

[KIP.]

Ring the Samaritans or women’s aid helpline. It’s not the solution, don’t give him the satisfaction. Ring the police too and tell them you’re scared of him.

[KIP.]

Is the home in your name or his? Does he have any rights to be there?

[Alittlelost]

Neither we rent. But I my thinking weird.i either have be with him because I love him still but I cant cope or I feel I only other option is suicide. Neither make sense. I’m just going to have a nap and hope I wake up thinking clearer

[KIP.]

That gives him the power he needs to abuse. Have a good nap x

[agonyaunt]

Have a good nap. Do you have a close support network around you? (Sorry if you have posted before I’m new to the site!) I’m finding FaceTime my saving grace at the moment despite feeling that it upsets me it gives me comfort too knowing people are still out there. Please don’t feel alone, or that’s an option! There is always something positive to focus on x

[Lisa]

Hi Alittlelost,

I’m really sorry to hear that you’re having such a tough time. It’s so understandable with all the heightened tension; spending so much time together in the house means that you don’t have the space or time away to be able to recover or relax.

It’s so important, now more than ever, that you keep reaching out for support. Agonyaunt is right; you’re not alone in this and there is help available.

As Kip has said the Samaritans are there if you need to just talk anything through, and don’t hesitate to call the police if you need to. Feel free to private message me too. I really hope you feel a bit better when you’ve woken up,

Take care,

Lisa

[Alittlelost]

I’m just stood crying in the kitchen as I make his food. Theres even a arguement and attitude over what f*****g food I cook for him and how. Now he is doing everything to purposely rub stuff in my face and make me feel bad.

[Alittlelost]

Theres no use calling the police because technically there is no crime being broken right now.

[Alittlelost]

I’m fed up of being taken for granted, not being a priority, not being as good as he is. Mr big successful manager. I’m just some lazy crazy woman with autism who cant look after herself and isn’t good enough. I have a hell lot of love and thoughtfulness. I do so many nice things to try be thoughtful and he appreciates none it. He dont even recognise it.

[KIP.]

Yes you are seeing the real person he is and the person you are. You deserve better x

[agonyaunt]

You are in it and recognising that he is not a positive person in your life. You are a better person than he is because you are kind thoughtful caring and would never treat someone the way he is treating you. I am glad you have messaged again. I know we are in a lockdown at the moment but is there someone you can talk to over the phone? If not try Samaritans? Don’t stop reaching out! X

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