I’m a sorry you’re having a horrible day. Can you sleep? Sometimes that’s what our minds and bodies are craving sleep just to switch off and recharge. You are exhausted. You’ve been through so much.
Are you in touch with your GP? Do they know your situation, could they help? Or a counsellor? Sometimes sharing the weight with a therapist can really help, splurging it all out, giving it them, handing over for an hour can really help.
And here, can we help? Remember crying is cathartic too, it’s good to cry, take a couple of paracetamol (always gives me a headache) then have a good cry. Honestly. Sending a big hug. It will get better, honestly it will, you’ve got a lot to contend with. How are the professionals helping? Can you get any others to help? Xx