Hi unsinkableunicorn,
It sounds like your boyfriend is escalating the abuse and it’s understandable that you’re feeling scared of him. Although he hasn’t directly assaulted you so far, throwing things around you is violent and frightening. It has the same impact of controlling you by fear, the message being that he could physically harm you if he chose. If you are ever feeling at risk of immediate harm from him, do call 999 so that the police can come and help to keep you safe. You don’t have to wait for him to do something and then call them after, your safety is important.
It’s okay that you’re feeling like you can’t leave, you don’t have to be ready for that or to take any practical steps before you can get support. If you wanted to talk things over in more detail with a Women’s Aid worker and discuss options, you could use our Live Chat service (available every day). If you’d like to access some more ongoing support, you could reach out to your local domestic abuse service. The support should be fitted to what you want and you shouldn’t feel pressured to do anything you’re not comfortable with or before you’re ready.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa