Daughters getting married

[Falling Skys]

Some of you may know my children have sided with their father.

I have found out recently from a third party that my daughter is getting married soon. I was relieved that I hadn’t been invited because the man she is marrying is a control freak. So I don’t have to go and looked happy for them, or be there with my ex and other child.

But while I was out today a woman started speaking to me about her children and grandchildren with love and pride. I felt an over whelming feeling of loss and realisation that I will never have that.

Its been years since I saw my grandchildren I don’t know what they like. There will never be a quiet coffee and a laugh with my daughter.

Recently the property was damaged and my son said that he would do the work, but he was going to charge in a vast amount of money. (even though he lives in the house rent free) So when I ask for it in writing so I could do it through the insurance nothing has come through. I am now trying to get quotes from other people.

I’m not a bad person and I just know how much more I need to go though before it gets better.

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