Hi Milkshake@,
I am sorry to hear how you are feeling at the moment. I hope it helped to share with us. You have been through so much; try to be kind to yourself and give yourself time to recover from everything.
If you feel like you are in need of some additional support, you could chat to a Women’s Aid worker in confidence via our Live Chat service (open every day). They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost
you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat service here: https://chat.womensaid.org.uk/
Keep posting when you can, there is support here for you.
Best wishes,
Lisa