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    • #14682
      Serenity
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      Today, I went to a work meeting. It was very formal, a sit around the table set up where everyone had to contribute. Most of the people there I didn’t know.

      I found myself speaking confidently and my thought processes were clear.

      This is such a tremendous change for me. During the first half of my marriage, he succeeded in making me feel I was not at all clever. It’s amazing how a stealthy and clever abuser can succeed in doing this through covert methods. My vocabulary literally decreased, and I became childlike.

      Then, when something came over me and I found the strength to go back to education, he made my life so hard that I became ill with a condition that gave me mind fog. I was still bad with this when I got my first lovely job.

      I was always trying to disguise it at work, but I bet some days they must have thought I was on drugs! I was so slurred in my speech, and my mind wouldn’t work properly, due to this stress-related illness.

      It’s been a long haul. I have had to try to heal from the abuse, and had to really focus on my health, but when I performed like that today, I realised that my mind was beginning to work normally again.

      Being away from his abuse, my brain is working properly and developing as it should. Onwards and upwards!

    • #14701
      Millionpieces
      Participant

      Hi, glad to hear that.
      I had this feeling too this pass few days, even sometimes still flashing back but I feel much stronger, manage to think and manage my life back. Last few weeks ago I weep in my car on the way back from work, it doesn’t happen anymore, I can smile see the sun is out today and really enjoy is heart and soul. I hope this will be better, I don’t want to think to much what going to happen, I just live one day at the time.
      This forum help me so much.
      Thank you everyone..

    • #14740
      Suntree
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      Serenity.
      Well done you and thank you for sharing 🙂

    • #14842

      So happy to read that Serenity 🙂 came on here feeling really low, so glad to find this new space for positivity and to read this post from you! x

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