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17th November 2017 at 10:13 pm #50163RedFoxParticipant
Hey,
I have always been depressed. But now it’s worse because I have been abused and I’m still linked to my abuser, although it’s not my choice and I am stuck with him at the moment.
I have no motivation for anything. I work all day and am bored there so I only wait one thing, to be at home again. But when I am, all the stuff I imagine I’ll do, I don’t want to do them anymore. I don’t feel like it, I don’t want anymore. I stay there doing nothing, sleeping most of the time.
At the weekend I’ll do all the house stuff, looking forward to a well deserved rest, but it never comes.
Once I’m done with the hard work, again I wonder what to do with myself. All the things I imagined I will enjoy doing, I don’t want them anymore. So I just lay in bed, trying to forget I exist.
And then the weekend ends and I start being anxious about starting another week, being away from my cocoon. And it all starts again.I know there is no magical answer but I wish there was one. Do you feel this way too? How to you stop this happening?
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17th November 2017 at 10:25 pm #50164BorntobefreeParticipant
Hi redfox
Sounds very like you are so exhausted hun
You could do with a break.. have you talked to your gp ..have some time of work..It’s awful what these abusers do to our mental health
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17th November 2017 at 10:37 pm #50165RedFoxParticipant
I don’t want to blame him for it. As I said,
I have always experienced it. It’s just now I feel more isolated so it’s not helping but I always feels this way, and I did before him.I feel useless.
I tried to get a nhs referral for counselling sessions, I had a phone assessment, they asked me if I was feeling suicidal and if I had made plans to kill myself. I haven’t, I don’t want to kill my self. They said they had too long waiting lists for putting me on it for counselling. They also had CBT but said it was not appropriate.I don’t even feel like fighting for it, i fight for everything and i am exhausted.
My job keeps me sane, it forces me to see people and I’m good when I’m around people, I smile a lot. But there are days where I can’t force myself to work and I feel sh*t at what I do.I just want to feel something, I want to look forward to doing things. Every event stresses me… and i stay there doing nothing because nothing is appealing, because what is the point? It’s almost like cleaning the house is the highlight of my week.
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18th November 2017 at 2:15 pm #50182teatimeParticipant
I feel same at the moment. It’s quite bad. Having trouble focussing.
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