thats good you seam to be dealing with it well, sometimes though its not until a long time later it hits you, a smell a word a touch and then bamn right there and you freak out. I have ptsd and I cant live a normal life with that , I cant have a new relationship and I cant trust people., recently I decided that no one cares about me anyway so there was no point sticking about anywhere other than in my own company because I am that damaged people just take advantage of that all the time, and I cannot deal with anymore. and I guess that’s how I know it has affected me.