Feeling numb

[Faraway]

Hi everyone, I’m guessing this is something others have experienced but it’s new to me. I feel so many emotions on the inside like sadness, Loneliness, scared, despair ect but I only feel them on the inside. I feeling like I’m crying but no tears come out! There is no release then when it stops I just feel numb. Then I get frustrated and feel like I don’t want to talk to anyone about how I’m doing. I just say – I don’t want to talk about it and then I feel like I’m being rude. I see my psychologist soon so I’ll have a chance to talk about but just wondering if anyone else has felt as weird as I do? X*x

[KIP.]

Absolutely. Everything you describe is exactly what I went through. I think it’s the trauma. The brain slowly trying to work out what happened. I think we suppress feelings while with an abuser. It will get better but it takes time. Show your post to the psychologist. They will know exactly what you mean x

[colouringinfairy]

I would say we all have – I’m at the stage where I am very emotional but also quite numb. I feel pain and sadness and keep getting triggered, but I also feel nothing towards anyone or anything. Just feel like an empty vessel going through the motions. Therapy helps, but I also think getting as much you time as possibly and sitting with your feelings/excepting them is a good way to deal with this. Doing things you love and find interesting is good too – focus on something you’re passionate about, like for me watching a documentary helps me as I find it very fascinating then spend time researching that topic and building my knowledge. That cheers me up. Obviously it’s not a cure but it’s a way to help me feel good about something at least. Just make sure you are being kind to yourself and putting your feelings first x

[Anonymous]

i totally understand how you feel. i have taken him back so many times so that feeling would go away each time he came back he was stronger and abused me even more. i took a atand thismorning and threw him out. im alover the place but one of us would of ended up dead. i know the feelings will go i have experienced this before more fool me i found another abuser. please be strong be strong for me too together we can get through this lets hold eachothers hand and we can walk through the sadness together

[Faraway]

Thanks everyone, I guess that it is normal considering what we have been through. I just want to be the happy girl I was. Even when he was it bad but I still felt relatively happy because I didn’t pay attention to him. I hope I can get through this as the court process is traumatising me. Thanks everyone, yesterday was a bad day and then I think – things could be worse because all my children are alive and healthy. Then I beat myself up for letting myself feel this way because life is cruel and there are more worse things in the world than this. Xxxx

[Faraway]

I meant even when he live here

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