Flashbacks from childhood?

[iliketea]

I had a vivid flashback memory of something that one of my parents did to the other. Not sure if you call it a flashback, I hadn’t remembered this thing had happened. Not been on my radar at all as an adult, I know I always say my childhood narrative doesn’t involve physical violence – but now I’m not too sure. My child whacked me by accident in the same place and it was like I was in a film – complete colour memory flash to my mum and dad and actually feeling the pain that was felt – remembering I could feel the pain at the time, and it was the same as I felt when my child did it to me by accident. What I do with this? I mentioned it to the CBT therapist and she just acknowledged what I said, but then moved swiftly on as I tried to talk. I can’t ask anyone if this did happen as no-one is alive. There isn’t anyone I can ask from the past. I feel strange. I’m not sure if the high intensity CBT is making me start to remember things from when I was young. Or is it being away from the abusive relationship for a certain amount of time. I don’t even know if it matters, or what the relevance of it is, or anything, I just don’t know what to make of it flashing up like that.
Any flashback experts out there? Is this a flashback or just an unlocked memory?
Thanks.
x

[nbumblebee]

Im not sure if this helps but Id like to try.
I had hyponotherapy today first time ive been so scared of it i dont have the nicest past and have chosen to forget alot of it but opening my eyes to how my husbands treats me has opened my eyes to my past a bit and i need to learn to re wire my thinking so i stop blaming myself and hurting myself and discover i am worth more no where near there yet but today was day one.
My counsellor said that sometimes these things can bring back memories long forgotten but sometimes your mind can play tricks on you and plant false memories in there too. When i asked how you know which are false she said it didnt matter. The memory doesnt matter its how you feel about it how you deal with it how you move on from it. If a trauma is tbere then you need to talk about it deal with it learn from it and grow. Does that make sense at all??
Its hard isnt it tberapy its making me remember stuff i dont want to and leaves me feeling sick but I think i need to face this now head on Im getting to old to keep dealing with this s**t I need to get it all out face it and finally deal with ot all then maybe i will find the stength to deal with the here and now and my arse of a husband and my sham of a marriage.
I hope you find the answer sweetie keep at it keep being strong sending hugs xx

[iliketea]

Thanks @nbumblebee that makes a lot of sense, thanks so much for taking the time and for explaining. Yes Im feeling the same, its time it all came out, hard though, I’ve started a journal for past things, it was taking up too much space in my usual day to day diary! You’ve got me thinking about hypnotherapy, I did it once for a bad habit I had, and it worked first time! Actually never thought of it for trauma and the past. Can you point me to anywhere to learn more about it? Hope you’re ok? Big hugs back, stay strong. xx

[nbumblebee]

You are most welcome its all new to me so i wasnt sure id make sense.
My thereapist specialises in this so i am not sure if you can google it.
Its hard I wont lie but i left feeling calmer.
Have you ever googled your inner chimp?
Thats an interesting read and also the super computer mindfulness thats also a good read.
Facing your past isnt nice but I truely believe in order to leaen to help ourselves now we need to let it out.
Good luck xx

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