A few weeks ago, I was still very much in fighting spirit, and I had strong opinions about my abuse. Now, I feel flat. I feel like my personality has been erased. I can’t even be the mum I want to be, as he is there always upsetting the apple cart.
That is because he is in contact with your kids and still terrorizes your life. Get rid of him entirely. Make the kids not want to see him for a while. Sorry, parental alienation can be a survival strategy when it comes to abusive men. The UN and the fathers movements will not be happy about that, hahaha!
I suffered so much damage from the abuse and from all what happened to me after fleeing that I am still not myself, although he is now completely out of my life.
You are doing so well serenity. Playing the long game. We all know the mask will slip. It already has. Is it possible to drop the kids at your mums. Is she close enough? It’s amazing how toxic these men are. A terrible emotional trauma they cause time after time. I’m seriously thinking of trying to get a lifelong restraining order. (detail removed by Moderator) x