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Hi everyone, it’s me IWMB and girls I AM SO BACK๐๐
It’s been ages since I last wrote on here, had some internet issues, then life after abuse got in the way. I am living my life as much as I can to the fullest. I am at target weight, I’m back at Pilates, back on the political campaign trail, am looking into cross party talks to legislate new laws re DA. Will do that more in a few months or so. I’ve completed a DA course with my local WA group. I’m going to an arts and craft class run by WA too. I’m going to meet up with my sister soon who lives abroad but will be in the uk soon. Who knows I may be able to visit her soon too in her own country. Well I will once I can get a Scottish passport๐ด๓ ง๓ ข๓ ณ๓ ฃ๓ ด๓ ฟ ๐คฃ๐คฃ. I’ve been to a few concerts and gone out with my cousin a few times too, who I’ve never been out with as an adult. It’s not easy, there are days I just get through the day, sleep evades me every night, I’m pretty OCD now as I couldn’t keep house the way I wanted to before for fear of moving his things. I eat when I want what I want. I have a bath at 1am cos I can. I still have some contact, circumstances dictate for now. But soon I will be totally free and will just have to learn to let go of the ‘good times’. I’ve been getting so many compliments from women I know, which is so nice. I think if a man did that I’d be thinking, aye right then! My health and mental health isn’t the best, but I do feel in the whole lighter and happier. I can dream again, whereas before I never thought any further than getting through the day.
Take heart, one day society will be rid of this curse.
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Hi Iwantmeback,
I often wondered how you were so great to hear from you and how well youโre doing. Iโm so glad youโre free and out of the cycle of abuse. You show it can be done we can break free if we persist and just keep posting and reading the posts. You were like me and just couldnโt leave. In my case I couldnโt leave my relationship but by getting support from a group like this one , I started to change and luckily he discarded me. In your case you came on here to this Forum day after day for ages ; and eventually your persistence and hard work of posting and reading other posts daily paid off ; and you got the strength to leave ; putting a plan in place.
Well done! Iโm so delighted for you. Youโll go from strength to strength!
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๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ to each and every lady who talked to me, listened to me and supported me. My love for females knows no bounds. I’ve been having seriously deep and meaningful conversations with myself for weeks, as many of us no doubt have and do. I’ve decided I no longer want to be classed as a woman. Bear with me๐ค๐ค.
It all started with reading up on ‘cis’gender, which for those who don’t know means those who don’t identify as trans! Now straight away I got in my high horse but the more I thought about it, this lead me to my next thoughts.
I’ve been watching the third series of ‘The Handmaid’s Tale’. One episode in particular resonated with me so strongly, I was hysterically sobbing watching it. It was maybe the 4th episode where the Handmaids who lived in Washington ‘chose’ to ring their mouths closed to show their ‘devotion’ to God. All I could think of was how my voice would be forever silenced if I ‘chose’ to return. The whole series from start to finish has been very thought provoking, with or without abusive partners thrown into the mix. The Handmaidens lose their names, their right to work, to have their own money, they become property, they take their masters name, OfJoseph, OfFred and it made me think how the word woman came about… When God took a rib from Adam and made Eve, of man became woman. So on that note I am no longer happy being called a woman, being a human being is good enough for me. Told you I thought too deeply๐คฃ๐คฃ
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It’s good to hear from you IWMB. I remember you were a great support for me when I first came on this forum. It makes me really happy to read how well you are doing – and I’m going to say you are such a strong human being ๐ It’s your time now and you get to do fill it with whatever makes you feel good. Keep going and please do keep popping in once in a while x It’s so good to read these updates x
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So do pleased for you IWMB, you’re an inspiration. For me, I have regressed a bit , sort of got sucked in again but my heart isn’t in it …. (detail removed by moderator) I absolutely flipped at him , I feel slightly bad about it but I gave to accept that the venom I spouted was truly deep down my anger, hurt and feelings I didn’t have guys to express before and was also partly for protection (threatened calling police should he ever make me feel unsafe I. Own home again!)
So today feeling rather low but was so uplifting to see your post….I might not have the energy to leave today but I will very soon and I will take so much learning from you , I know it’s time I get outside support now it’s so hard to do it alone! Xx
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