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Hate it when you get that feeling you’ve upset them and you don’t know why. Got a bit of a snarky response to a simple question when I returned home (detail removed by Moderator). Fine, ignore it. He says he wasn’t being funny, just wishes I’d ask important questions, whatever that is. Then he said something that just makes no sense, I can’t say what, but I had to argue it. Then he says I am pathetic and he has no respect for me. Why am I here?? So tired. I can’t keep putting up with this cycling. Falling into the normality trap and then getting the rug pulled out. Even when I think things are normal I get zero affection. I told him back along I’d been making an effort physically to try and improve the relationship, although it’s hard as I have a lot of issues stemming from things that have happened, I think why am I being intimate with someone who has done or said x,y,z? He doesn’t show any affection at all. But then he’ll sit and watch something on telly and see couples and say stupid stuff like why don’t I jump on him and make him feel wanted. Hmmm. Wonder why. We have issues with other people around us, people trying to bully us, we live in a place that seems to have a high concentration of unpleasant folk. And we agree on that, but then during an argument he’ll say I’m like them. I get tired of hearing about how it’s him by himself against everyone else. I’m right here but he treats that one person who’d be on his side like c**p.
Rambling again! Just feeling sad. Sometimes it helps just to vent. I just want a normal life with someone that loves me. -
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No it doesn’t. He tells me I’ll never know how good I’ve got it until I’ve lost it. How there’s no one else like him that would do the things he does for us. People would look at what I have and think I am so lucky, and I recognise that, and it makes me sad as the way things are makes it hard to appreciate it if that makes sense.
I don’t think he sees anything wrong in his behaviour. Sometimes I say to him during a calm time, don’t you get how I might be upset by what you say? But it doesn’t stop him. (detail removed by Moderator). Kicked off about the same thing and asking me how things are between us. I said (detail removed by Moderator) he called me pathetic and said he had no respect for me and all stemming from something to do with other people. He doesn’t even apologise. I see things on here where other halves say sorry for things but I don’t even get that.
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Just needed to rant having a bad day..all i was trying to do was get quotes for insurance and anxiety kicked in and all could hear was ex’s voice saying you are so thick you don’t know what you are doing, brain dead woman,do u need me to help you etc he used to control all finances so when i left i had no idea what i was doing.now many years on and i have muddled through but he is still there that voice in my head making me doubt everything i do, putting me down.then next thing i am telling all this to a friend by text because feel alone and anxiety getting worse and then feeling like i will lose her as a friend because i keep coming out with all this to her.she is lovely and trys to support me but i then feel crosser with self for even mentioning to her because feel i have made myself look stupid infront of her.sick of the anxiety and PTSD symptoms he left me with.i am sick of the fact he took so much of my life away..now on a waiting list for specialist counselling at least (removed by moderator) months to go..how on earth are we all supposed to deal with this why we wait.i talk to support lines which are good but just going over it all time and time again to different people is hard.everyone says find something positive and i do when i can but then something happens and triggers it all off again.can never escape my head..day n night! Feels like this is my life now forever controlled by him even though i have left him.
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